Holding Sydnee

When Sydnee turned 1 week I was able to hold her for the first time!!! I can NOT describe how it felt. It was just incredible!! I was so scared to hold her tho because she is so small, I was scared I would break her. But she just cuddled right up on my chest and slept. It was perfect. She is perfect!!!!!!!!!

 

Look how tiny her foot is!

Please excuse my stains on my bra. I leaked before I could buy some pads

Me and my princess

Wide awake looking at mommy. She's just so beautiful!!!

ReEnlistment

Yesterday Todd reenlisted for another 3 years and got an assignment to go to Kuwait. He leaves in September sometime so that means the kids and I will be moving back to Utah during the year he's gone. We are nervous but excited for this new adventure thats coming our way.

Introducing...

Sydnee Aeris Mackay

Born: February 15, 2013 @ 6:53 AM

1 lb 10 oz

13.5 inches long

A's Vday Party

Today Allie had her Valentines day party! I was so excited for this party, since I was more prepared this year than last year. I made a box (even though she didn't use it) and we got some fun V-day cards for her to pass out to her class mates. Then once everyone was done passing out their cards it was time for treats. Allie and her friend Illidan sure loved this part of the party :)
 

I love that cheesy grin of hers!!!

Eating a cupcake. YUM!

Illidan - Allies school BFF

Enjoying some punch

 

Not So Great News

I had a NST/doppler/BBP yesterday and it was a hard appointment for me, I really should have had Todd go with me. The doctor told me the arteries in her umbilical cord aren't doing well. One is working "okay" and the other is on the way too not working at all (I don't really understand that part because I was crying so I wasn't listening like I should of) so I've been struggling with this news ever since yesterday also during the NST and ultrasound Sydnees heart rate dropped a couple times and because of that the doctor decided it would be a good idea for me to get the steroid shot to help Sydnee's lung incase I had her in the next couple weeks. I also would have to repeat the shot ever week or couple weeks because the shot does wear off. And as I said with Allie and Zachary - that shot HURTS like a mother effer!!! I hate that shot so bad!!!!! The doctor wanted to admit me but I didn't want to be admitted so he said I have to have a repeat NST. Well as for today's repeat NST it didn't look that great so I had to have an ultrasound and she looked good on that: moved around, was breathing here and there and on the doppler (blood flow in the umbilical cord) looked like yesterdays - no change. So the steroid shot has helped her and the doctor was comfortable with me being on bed rest at home. But I have to have a repeat NST/doppler/BBP and if they are worse I'll be admitted in the hopsital till I have her or till she's doing better.


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28 Week Appt

Today I had my 28 week doctor appointment. It went pretty good. First I'd like to mention I got my PICC line out - finally after 4 months of having it in I got it out!!! I just couldn't stand the itching from the tape anymore plus the line was coming out because I was scratching it so much, so it just needed to come out. Now I'm praying I don't throw up anymore but we'll see... But as for my doctor appointment baby's heartbeat sounded good - like usual. My tummy is now measuring at 24/25 weeks so baby is about 3/4 weeks behind. So because of that my doctor and I talked about me "hoping" to at least to try and make it to 36/37 weeks and then I'll get induced then but there is a chance I could be induced earlier. So at this point I have no idea when Sydnee will be here??? Its frustrating!!! Also my doctor wants me to start going every two weeks. I have so many appointments from now until I have Sydnee its crazy!!

 

28 Weeks!

 

Weight Gain: I'm in the 130's I believe. Thats the most I've ever been... EEK!!!

Gender: Its a Girl!!!

Stretch Marks?: None

Belly Button in/out?: Its almost out

Movement?: She is moving but not as much as she has been in the past

Symptoms?: The usually morning sickness, bloody noses, headaches, braxton hicks contractions, and now I've got some swelling :(

Cravings?: Wendy's Lemonade (yum!), fruits, and lots and lots of chocolate!!!

Size of Baby: Baby is the size of an CHINESE CABBAGE

Bed Rest!

I had another doppler ultrasound today and all I can say is I wasn't a happy mama when I left the office. So you know where the doppler ultrasound they check the blood flow from baby to placenta and with Sydnee - each time there has been some restriction on the blood flow, and I shouldn't really worry about it. Well this week (today) the doctor told me it's more restricted which means something is up with the placenta. And due to it being more restricted I need to go on STRICT bed rest. Strict bed rest!!! This is going to be so hard with the other two kid at home. But I'm so worried about Sydnee. I totally left the doctors office in tears. This pregnancy is so hard I just don't know what to do?? I'm so scared something is going to happen to my baby girl.